So I have a feeling that my friends with benefits things is about to end just as fast as it started. I don’t know if I should be happy that we are probably done, or said that he doesn’t want to be with me… What am I to do…
My period sucks because I’m horny and emotional all at the same damn time. I just want to call Maynard, fuck, go back to my mint moose tracks ice cream, then sleep. Seriously I can’t even focus in class because I’ve got our last escapade replaying over and over in my head, while simultaneously coming up with numerous scenarios for my scheduled birthday sex.
yes. yes I did say scheduled birthday sex and I am so unbelievably excited for it. I can’t explain to you how excited i am. It is actually embarassing. I wouldn’t even be like this if I wasn’t dealing with raging hormones, sleeping with someone I’ve had numerous crushes on (past and present), and our little sexacape playing reruns in my head. Seriously if this keeps up I might just go insane. Just the thought of even knowing that I kissed him, that I’ve felt his skin on mine, is absolutely mind blowing. And I can’t take it. I don’t know what I want more… Him back in my bed holding me down… or just a silence in my head.
God I need help…
Tell me about your body. (¬‿¬)
- Hair: What hair color looks best on you and what's your natural color?
- Skin: Do you tan easily?
- Eyes: What is your favorite show to watch?
- Nose: What is your favorite perfume/candle fragrance?
- Mouth: Do you want to kiss anyone right now?
- Tongue: What was in your last meal?
- Windpipe: Do you sing?
- Neck: Do you wear necklaces?
- Ears: How many piercings do you have (if any)?
- Cheeks: Do you blush easily?
- Wrists: Have you ever broken a bone?
- Hands: Are you an artist/writer?
- Fingers: Do you play an instrument?
- Heart: Are you in love? If so, does the one you love know?
- Lungs: Do you smoke cigarettes?
- Chest: Are your maternal/parental instincts strong?
- Stomach: Do you feel confident in your body image?
- Back: Are you a virgin?
- Hips: Do you like to dance?
- Thighs: Has anyone ever called you fat or ugly?
- Knees: Have you ever cheated on someone?
- Ankles: Have you ever been arrested?
- Feet: Favorite pair of shoes?
So I have a friends with benefits thing going on. I just really wanted to tell someone. Idky. And it’s probably not the smartest thing to voice it to anyone and everyone. But what can I say. He’s Hott. And I’m really excited. Especially since I had a thing for him back when we were in the same building freshman year. Idk. This is crazy. And kinda weird. But I cannot wait for the birthday sex. It’s gonna be amazing. Sorry I’m a freak.